Monday, August 24, 2015

FUCK THIS SHIT

WHY CAN'T I GET OVER YOU YET?

WHY DO I KEPT ON COMING BACK, TRYING TO GET YOU BACK?

WHEN YOU CLEARLY TOLD THE WHOLE WORLD YOU DON'T WANT ME ANYMORE


I LEFT YOU NOT BECAUSE I FALL OUT OF LOVE

OH, I ASSURE YOU, I AM VERY MUCH STILL IN LOVE WITH YOU

YOU WERE GROWING DISTANT FROM ME

I WAS AFRAID, AND STILL AM

FOR A WEEK LONG, YOU WERE DIFFERENT, I NOTICED THE CHANGE

AND THEN YOU STARTED TO IGNORE ME

WHEN I SAID WHAT YOU DID IS HURTING ME, YOU SIMPLY BRUSHED ME OFF

ADMITTING YOUR DEEDS, BUT FAR FROM SAYING SORRY

I ONLY ASK FOR A LITTLE ATTENTION

I DON'T CARE FOR GEMS OR DESIGNER PRODUCTS OR EXPENSIVE DATES

JUST, A SIMPLE "Heyyy :)" WILL PRETTY MUCH MAKE MY DAY 

WHEN I SAID WE SHOULD PART WAYS, I WANT YOU TO HOLD ONTO ME

"Please, don't go" THREE WORDS, AND I WOULD'VE STAYED

OKAY, I THOUGHT, MAYBE YOU NEED TIME

I WAITED...

AND WAITED...

AND WAITED...

I FINALLY CHOSE TO CAST MY EGO ASIDE AND BREAK THE SILENCE

I WANT US TO START ANEW...AS FRIENDS

I TRIED SO HARD TO KEEP US TOGETHER, I WANT...US

FOR A WHILE, THESE SILLY IDEAS STARTED TO SEEP INTO MY MIND

SAYING THAT I'M THE ONLY ONE MAKING THE EFFORTS

I TOLD YOU WHAT MY SILLY MIND TOLD ME, AND YOU SAID

"Yup, you're the only one who's trying"

YOU DON'T EVEN CARE ANYMORE, DO YOU?

AND YOU POSTED 'THAT' ON TWITTER

WITH YOUR OWN WORDS, YOU TALKED TO SOMEONE, IN THE PUBLIC

ABOUT HOW YOU DON'T WANT ME ANYMORE

AND YET, A PART OF ME STILL HOPE THAT'S NOT TRUE

FUCK THIS SHIT

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Giving up


I did.
But one-sided feelings are bringing this friendship to an end that I never wanted to face.
You don't want to face the music.
I tried persuading you.
You backed out.
I lost my reason to stay.
You decided to go your own way.
I had to go mine then.
One thing will always stay mutual.
And that is my love for you.
As you wish, your problems are gone.
Along with me and my presence.

With this,
I'm sorry....

Choice

It is seldom easy to do what's right


Am I picking the right end of the road?

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Judgemental

Somewhat, I'm feeling guilty right now. Have I been the only one who is selfish? Is it wrong for me to keep the distance? Should I forget my egoistic side and give up already? Is it wrong for me to blame you?


On the other hand, I've already given up on this friendship. I'm not sure what should I do after this. A side of me want things to be just like old times. But the other side of me said, you'll just use me up to your benefits more and dump me afterwards. Which on is it? Should I blame you for having a sudden change of attitude? 


To be frank, it is you who left me. Or is it me giving up on you too fast? One-sided feelings are never nice, you know. I want to say more but I'm lost for words right now. Till then.

Bad Boy


GD's hair is weird
=='
but, other than that, the song's good
;)
I somehow imagined this song sang by a friend of mine
*sigh*
I should go and read some more manga
toodles, peeps

Sunday, January 1, 2012

A fresh start

Morning, peeps~
it's a whole new year today
Happy New Year to everyone out there
:D
my new year resolution?
well, sorry to say but it's always the same resolution every year
harharHAR
on top of the list,
I want to try and restrain myself from sleeping in class
(possibility to succeed = 49 to 51)
Finish all of the homework on time
(I've always been the last minute type =3=)
I want to boost myself in both school's curricular and co-curricular activities
Beat Yazo in every aspect
(mwahahahaha 3:D)
Do my duties perfectly.
maybe that's pretty much everything
haha...
peeps out there, what's your new year resolutions?
:D
I think this is all for now
Good luck to everyone out there in fulfilling your wishes
tataaa~





owh, so much to be done today

Friday, December 30, 2011

I'M ON TOP OF THE WORLD!!!!


my oh my
I feel so great like I'm on top of the world
:')
It feels really good to let your true feeling out
even if it's unrequited 
haha
I feel like singing along to Hatsune Miku right now
XD
this is so great
this is so great
this is so great
!!!!
being honest even if it's embarrassing is actually really great
WOOHOO~
no use in putting up hopes
I'm happy with the way I am right now
it's going to be another great day tomorrow
Good morning, world
I want to wake up with a smile
tataaaa~

Tuesday, December 27, 2011